Helpless – fading flower.

I feel so heartbroken. I feel so weightened. I feel so helpless and so useless. And there is definitely nothing more than problems I can cause in each step I take on this globe.

I feel I could crush the sky and all mountains around and definitely smash all glass with my prayers and the flames from my heart.

But who will listen to those prayers of mine? Who, now? From that kind of person I am — and such fervent prayers?
“If I do you a favor it might be better for you not to ridicule me in response.”

But that’s what I’m exactly doing.
How then can I approach the heavens and pray for anything else than that I might have something to eat tomorrow?

Yet whatever evil I might seem. I won’t stop inquiring, asking, yelling, crying till I get some response. I will take my example from Abraham oru Father who had famously implored G-d for the evil guys of Sedom.

I will implore and shout and cry and will not stop bothering and going on your nerves, G-d.

Yet, please notice this:
My prayer is not to give a chance to the souls of the wicked.

My prayer is there to ask for mercy for the soul of a righteous.
Is there any hope for mercy for the righteous in this our world of today?!

Believe me. I will hardly need anything more.

Save that little flower before it’s been wiped out from the map of evergreen, heartless grass.

It has already started fading.




  1. YF said,

    January 31, 2011 at 7:01 pm

    You’ll NEVER fade dearest one!!

    • February 1, 2011 at 12:52 am

      Oh me I believe so. It’s really not about me…”If I am only for myself, who am I?”

      • YF said,

        February 1, 2011 at 3:45 pm

        See!! that’s why I said there has been an unfortunate miscommunication recently. You seem to enjoy it.. That’s fine!!

        Anyways, I tried my best to follow, but alas–you’ve gone so far!!


      • February 3, 2011 at 5:19 am

        Come on, YF, what do you mean?! I don’t. i don’t even sound enjoying much. please don’t get lost behind…..

  2. YF said,

    February 3, 2011 at 6:04 pm

    I won’t. Thanks for everything.. You take care of yourself dear CK.

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